I thought I was doing really well for the past few months, but...
I'm in a major "I hate my body" headspace right now and I can't seem to get out of the funk.
It hasn't been triggered by magazines or models or television. I think it has something to do with knowing that this is probably the best my body will ever be (without me being obsessive about it or overexercising/undereating myself to oblivion)...and I'm not happy with my body right now. And pregnancy will most likely make it even worse. I mean, this is it.
I'm having a lot of complicated feelings toward my own body image/sexuality/marriage right now, too. I probably need to journal about it.
Anyway...just needed to be honest with my girls about how dumpy, fat, thighs-rubbing-together, icky I am feeling right now.
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Oh hon, I'm sorry. I'm frequently in this place.
About pregnancy -- it didn't really mess with my body much. A year later, and I'm basically the same as I've always been. A little top heavy and I could use some crunches, but basically I'm the same. If you're in decent shape going in, you can stay in decent shape going out -- at least in my experience.
I wish I could let you see you through my eyes, to me you look young and fit and va va voom!!
But, believe me, I know the feelings.
I look in the mirror and see and old, saggy, overweight woman and know that it is never going to change except to just get older and saggier... but, I guess I've just accepted it pretty much - not a hell of a lot I can do about it, except like you said, taking drastic measures and I'm not going to do that.
My first 3 pregnancies didn't effect me much, but, that last one at 38 - yeah, it did.
I know the feeling. I just keep telling myself to love my body just as it is. I try to look at all the women around me and be inspired by how beautiful each one is.
You are beautiful Kristen and your body is beautiful.
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