Monday, October 17, 2011

Geez... it is so depressing.... over the last several years since I started taking BP medicine (it's all I can figure) I have gained about 30 pounds. It doesn't seem to matter what I do or don't do those pounds just slowly keep adding up. I am desperate now. I can't comfortably wear any of my jeans and I just can't make myself go up yet another plus size. So, I am back to trying to eat more carefully, I have been exercising, mostly just some yoga type stuff and walking and trying to increase the difficulty each week. I know it can't hurt me (other than it kills my knees) but so far I don't think I actually doing enough to do any good. I will keep trying to increase my time and effort.. the eating less doesn't always work out :)

Honestly, I wish I could just be okay with being almost 60 and fat, but, I can't. I beat myself up on a regular basis and feel bad about myself the rest of the time.

I've been doing regular exercise for at least a month now, so, maybe I have found the stamina to keep going... we will see. The weather is nice enough now to enjoy walking so hopefully I will keep that up too.

Just thought I'd check in with a little more depressing news......

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Welcome to the Club, Dear Cheri!!

Cheri is now one of the women of the '3rd age'  past childhood, past childbearing, and into the age of wisdom.

I had devised a ceremony to welcome her in. When Mom was there to help her after surgery, I came over to visit and we had ourselves a little ceremony.

Privately, without anyone around who wasn't in the the club; we had Cheri burn the instruments of her 2nd age.

Welcome to the age of wisdom, Dear Cheri!

Thursday, June 09, 2011

"I wake up every morning on a diet; I go to bed every night a failure"

something I heard on a commercial... that about sums it up for me.

Monday, March 07, 2011

Although I have not been exercising at all other than my usual 100 miles I walk every day of my life in circles around and around the house, from the dog pen to the house, from the garden to the house, to the mail box and to the house, to the office and to the house, up the steps from kitchen to living room and living room to dining room.. okay, you get the picture

I haven't been walking or working out but I do moan and groan a lot. My bright idea of doing strength exercises for my knees almost killed me. I blew my right knee out and it is just now 3 weeks later going down, the pain is getting less - finally. So, that was not a great idea. Don't think I will try it again either.

But, I am getting prepared to do my annual spring (body)cleanse. I ordered some ridiculously expensive Super Juice and have made a menu and grocery list of super foods to eat and another list of things to NOT eat for that 3 days.

I know it is not much in the big scheme of things, but, it makes me feel better about how I treat my body and therefore It is good.

Monday, February 28, 2011

Working It Out

I finally started working out again last week. All in all, it feels great. I've set a new goal for myself. I'd like to be able to run a mile by May 4th, my second year open heart surgery anniversary. As soon as the weather is good enough I'll be outside training, but for now I'm using EA active and the Wii to get started. I've been doing 25 minute workouts five times a week. It feels great! I haven't seen any weight loss, but I'm not going to let that hinder me.

Saturday, February 12, 2011


After more than a year of no periods...I started my period yesterday.

You have got to be freaking kidding me. My poor old ovaries just don't know when to die.

I haven't walked, hell, I've just barely moved for the past couple of weeks. My eating has been shot to hell with Mark gone every day this last week, I didn't cook, I nibbled.

Spring time is coming to Oklahoma though. Supposed to be in the 70's this week. funny, huh?

Maybe the sunshine will inspire me :)

Sunday, January 30, 2011

I didn't walk at all this week because of my back, was hoping to start again tomorrow but the predictions are for freaking cold weather next week so we'll see.

I did look up a couple of websites that showed specific exercises to strengthen back muscles and some for knees and have been doing them.. a few every day and doing a little weight lifting with (very) light weights (8lbs). I know I don't work out hard enough to probably make much difference but I keep thinking it is better than not doing anything... right???

I'm doing pretty good at eliminating the salty snacks but, Lord o'mercy you should hear Mark whine about me buying unsalted nuts and seeds....

My eating is about the same... too much of a good thing and there is no weight loss. Maybe when I can get back to walking every day.. I can keep hoping.

love you guys

Sunday, January 23, 2011


this week was a total FAIL

I didn't walk but a couple of days - it was just too cold.

It's so easy for me to replace one thing with another in my diet.. I mean... I have been cutting way back on the salty snacks but eating just as many non salty ones that there is no way I'm gonna lose any weight, but, I keep telling myself that I'm eating healthier and actually I am but I still need the weight loss to bring down the BP and I'm not achieving that!!

All I know to do is keep trying.

It hasn't been a good week - lots of stress. We are dealing with another Rock Star who is refusing to pay us what they owe and losing what we thought was a friend in the process. Really SUCKS!! That and my Older Brother is causing me grief, again. He has sent two different realtors to our house...

So, come tomorrow morning, I will bundle up and go walk. I will try to control my eating. I will not eat salty things. I will take my vitamins and my BP medications and that's about the best I can do.

Sunday, January 16, 2011

I'm down 6lbs!! I haven't worked out for the past three days thanks to a nasty chest cold. Does coughing count as a workout?

How are you doing A???

Sunday, January 09, 2011

Walked every day this week except one - the day I went to the doctor. I was especially proud of myself for making it this morning. It was cold and all I wanted to do was snuggle up and stay in bed but I did it and felt better for it.

The diet hasn't been a stretch for me, I think the new meds are affecting my appetite so I have been eating only because I know I need to eat and being choosy about what I did eat. According to the scale (which I decided to use ONCE a week) I lost a couple of pounds this week.. not a big deal when you need to lose at least 50!

Today I've had 2 eggs (but only one yolk), a piece of oat bread toast, a small bowl of vegetable soup, and a bowl of cheerios with blueberries.

I learned something tonight that really surprised me. I haven't ever paid much attention to the sodium content of things while reading labels but, of course, am paying much more attention now. .... Did you know that a serving of canned green beans has 200mg MORE sodium than a serving of Pringles potato chips???? WoW!!

This has been a really hard week, a couple of nights of wondering if I was going to wake up the next morning, one evening where we struggled with deciding to take me to the ER... moments of panic. But, I think the meds are starting to level me out again. I need to not forget this week but keep it close in my mind to spur me on to keep walking and pushing myself.

6 out of 7 ain't bad..

I worked out Thursday, skipped Friday, but found myself back in front of EA Active again on Saturday!

That's 6 days out of 7!

The diet hasn't been the best, but it is a work in progress.

My blood pressure is already showing signs of compliance! That's the best news of all!

Wednesday, January 05, 2011

I walked my mile this morning(two days in a row), then worked in the garden.

I hardly ever eat breakfast (just not a morning person), had an egg sandwich for lunch, salad with grilled chicken for supper and a few triscuits while we watched a movie tonight.

The hardest part for me will be getting the salt out of my diet. I love salt. I love salty things.. chips, crackers, pretzels...

I informed the family there will be no more wieners in our house. Emily loves them and I have been remiss in letting her eat so many of them.. .they are OUT OF HERE. She will be happy with what I give her.

When I get weak I will just remind myself of that BP reading the other night - 174/103!!!

Do it or DIE. you would think that is motivation enough.

1/7th of the way there!

just finished workout 4 of 28. It feels good to be doing this even when I'd rather be sitting on the couch watching TV!

Tuesday, January 04, 2011

3/28....only 25 more days to go! :)

Monday, January 03, 2011

I worked out today despite every bone in my body telling me not too. It was a very long day at school and I was tired when I got home, but I feel better for having done it.


Sunday, January 02, 2011

Begining Again (update)

Because my blood pressure was 143/88 today, and my weight is higher than I want to admit to myself, I've been having the most horrible acid reflux lately, and I feel like crap most days I'm starting again.

I've signed up for the 28-Day Bootcamp Workout Challenge. So for the next 28 days I will log my progress here. The good, the bad, the ugly. Whatever I do or don't do, you will find it here.

For breakfast today I had 2 slices of whole wheat toast, 1 tablespoon of peanut butter, 1 cup of low-fat yogurt, and a cup of coffee.

The weather is oddly warm today, so I will go for a walk.

Anyone want to join me in the challenge?

I made myself workout with the Wii. I use EA Active and did a 22 minute workout. I was sweaty and feeling better about myself for it by the end. :) Workout 1/28 down. I'm committed to working out every day for the next 28 days!